My online
friends that I chat with often are dwindling and I haven’t spent time with real
life friends in a little while. My new counselor that I saw yesterday had a lot
of good insights on friendships, online and real life. I actually liked her a
lot and will definitely go back. I think she spent more time talking than I did
but I didn’t mind in this case because everything she said felt useful to me.
I guess I
think of myself as having a sort of loner personality and not really needing a
whole lot of social interaction, but I think I have been a bit lonely lately. I
think with these online guys, I only really get a glimpse of the side of
themselves they choose to present to me… their good sides. So I think I give
them more credit than they deserve. However my ex pretend fiancé has only been
just showing me his bad side (for the most part). He has been rude and unresponsive.
Ok, I suppose I have been a bit pissy to him too. It’s almost like we have been
married for a long time and don’t get along anymore. I told him that talking to
him is no longer fun and so I don’t want to do it anymore. Divorced now. It
might sound pathetic but I will really miss him because he was once so funny
and easy to talk to. Also, I haven’t heard from my best Swedish friend (the one
I made the drawing of) in over a week. I’m disappointed because I didn’t get
any feedback from him about my horrible drawing, so I made another video for
him!:
Making the
videos is somewhat fun so I might attempt to make a short video blog for a
future post. The part that I don’t like is how long they take to upload to
youtube. Both videos were less than a minute and yet took around 2 hours to
upload.
Aaron is
coming to visit me today so I am excited about some extended, real life social interaction.
I should actually get up and make myself presentable soon. Tomorrow I will have
lunch with my real life father and then Sunday I will do something fun with my
real life friend Jessica! Pack in some fun before chemo on Monday.
